'But Who Do You Say I Am' (Mt. 16:13)
By Br. Leonard Konopka, MIC (Sep 3, 2006)
by Br. Leonard Konopka, MIC
This is the first, in what will be a weekly meditation I will write for thedivinemercy.org.
My intention in sharing these brief thoughts, prayers, and gleanings from the Diary of St. Maria Faustina Kowalska is to respond to a statement that Our Lord made to St. Faustina:
"I desire to unite Myself with human souls; My great delight is to unite Myself with souls. Know, My daughter, that when I come to a human heart in Holy Communion, My hands are full of all kinds of graces which I want to give to the soul. But souls do not even pay any attention to Me; they leave Me to Myself and busy themselves with other things. Oh, how sad I am that souls do not recognize Love! They treat Me as a dead object" (Diary, 1385).
From our human understanding, Our Lord seems to be implying that He is a jilted lover. His graces are spurned and His love is unrequited. Those who have had a similar experience of unrequited love can appreciate what He may be saying. Many of us struggle to find the deeper meaning of His anguish. Now that we know how Our Lord is patiently waiting, we can ceaselessly pray to the Holy Spirit, as St. Faustina did, for the grace to know how to respond to His love.
However, the burning question remains for each of us to answer: Just who is Jesus for me? And if He wants to give so much of Himself to me daily, then why do I spurn those graces? What am I afraid of? Who will help me remove the blocks from receiving Him unconditionally into the very depths of my being?
As we are led to further deepen our knowledge of Jesus through the reception of Holy Communion, personal prayer and reading the Diary, perhaps we too will be enlightened by the Holy Spirit and respond appropriately to Our Lords desire for a relationship with Himself. Our Lord knows only too well, that He is the only one that can truly fill the void that remains in all of our minds and hearts. Whether we are just beginners in the spiritual journey or advanced along the mystical path of contemplation, the need for His Mercy will always prevail. When finally captivated by His love, we will have no other recourse but to trust in Jesus for the rest of our lives.
We read in the Diary that St. Faustina prayed for the same grace that we are seeking: "Merciful Jesus, I beg You fervently to enlighten my mind so that I may come to know You better, You who are the Infinite Being and that I may get to know myself better, who am nothingness itself" (Diary 376).
Brother Leonard Konopka, MIC, is on the staff of the Marian Seminary in Washington, DC. He also provides spiritual direction, retreats, and seminars. Brother Leonard has a leaflet available that has a series of meditations on the five wounds of our Lord. The meditations are intended for use while praying the Chaplet of The Divine Mercy. Click here to order Contemplate My Wounds. He also has a CD available with the meditations on the five wounds, interspered with the Chaplet of The Divine Mercy. Click here to order A Musical Interlude.