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'Yet I Do Not See Love'
Saint Faustina Reveals the Secret to Our Lord's Heart
By Br. Leonard Konopka, MIC (Sep 18, 2006)
In our lifelong quest for union with Jesus, we have the assurance that the Holy Spirit will continue to draw each of us to that same purpose in life. Regardless of how many times we have veered off this journey, the Holy Spirit will gently help us to return if we are open to this influence.
"A noble and delicate soul, even the most simple â€¦ follows faithfully the faintest breath of the Holy Spiritâ€¦" (Diary of St. Faustina, 148).
One of the mysteries of God that the Holy Spirit reveals to us in the Diary of St. Faustina, is that Our Lord is extremely humble as He waits for our relationship to develop. Why are we so important to Him? What is it in our souls that Jesus finds so appealing? Jesus actually becomes so vulnerable that He tells us of His enormous anguish and sorrow when He does not receive our loving response. He wants us to know what it's like for Him. Jesus told St. Faustina: "I have founded My whole law on love, and yet I do not see love. This is why sadness fills My Heart" (Diary, 1478).
With deepest emotion, Jesus continues to reveal Himself:
"Oh, how painful it is to Me that souls so seldom unite themselves to Me in Holy Communion. I wait for souls, and they are indifferent toward Me. I love them tenderly and sincerely and they distrust Me. I want to lavish My graces on them, and they do not want to accept them. They treat Me as a dead object, whereas My Heart is full of love and mercy. In order that you may know at least some of My pain, imagine the most tender of mothers who has great love for her children, while those children spurn her love. Consider her pain. No one is in a position to console her. This is but a feeble image and likeness to My love" (Diary, 1447).
We can readily see how significant it is for Jesus to be in a relationship with us. He may love us as we are, but He won't leave us as we are. He beckons us to go deeper into the understanding of why He wants, desires, anticipates, and longs for our response. His communion with us at Mass constantly reveals how vulnerable Jesus allows Himself to become for our sake. We need never be fearful to approach Him. Saint Faustina knew only too well how much she derived from receiving Him. She frankly admitted that: "I fear life on days when I do not receive Holy Communion. I fear my own self. Jesus concealed in the Host is everything to me" (Diary,1037).
Knowing Whom she would be receiving, her sensitivity to this expectation increasingly developed. She gives an example of her own concern for that union with Jesus: "All night long, I was preparing to receive Holy Communion" (Diary, 717)
Suggested evening prayer: Mary, my Mother, St. Joseph, St. Faustina, prepare my soul all night long to receive Jesus, and at my death escort me into the Presence of Jesus.
Next day, walking up the aisle to receive Him we can pray: Jesus, do not look upon my sins, but upon the preparation Your Mother, St. Joseph and St. Faustina have made to welcome You into my heart, mind and soul. Thank you Jesus for coming.
Brother Leonard Konopka, MIC, is on the staff of the Marian Seminary in Washington, DC. He also provides spiritual direction, retreats, and seminars. Brother Leonard has a leaflet available that has a series of meditations on the five wounds of our Lord. The meditations are intended for use while praying the Chaplet of The Divine Mercy. Click here to order Contemplate My Wounds. He also has a CD available with the meditations on the five wounds, interspered with the Chaplet of The Divine Mercy. Click here to order A Musical Interlude.